TRYING!!!!!

I was at the drug store for a few things and trying to avoid the candy isle as I was craving a dark chocolate snickers. You know it was easier for me to avoid candy when it was all milk chocolate but the first time I noticed the dark chocolate snickers and tried one I was so bummed/happy/bummed/happy. They are very good and I wish I had never seen them.

annnnyyyyway………….. I come around the corner to a very fat woman in a wheelchair, with oxygen tubing, holding a shopping basket against her stomach and thighs with one hand and putting hand fulls of candy bars in it with another.

I wish I could tell you this stopped me from buying the snickers but it did not, I couldn’t get past her in the isle so I went around the other side and plopped one in my basket. It really seemed like no deal in comparison. But that’s the deal isn’t it. I’m not supposed to compare myself to someone else’s size, style, habits or choices. I wouldn’t want some skinny broad eyeing my choice and looking down on my snickers while she holds her organic grown fresh apple or anything like that.

Why did I so easily give myself permission to buy the candy then. Its that double standard that I don’t like and I just jumped right into it myself, all for the taste of a dark chocolate snickers bar. Sigh.