My boss brought in a box of doughnuts.  At least a dozen.  They are on the counter…..right….over….there.

She even opened them up, displaying and sending the sweet aroma of deep fried batter and sugar through the room.  Standing at the counter (where the evil doughnuts are) describing the different kinds she got for everyone. 

No one is touching them.  The three women here seem to be immune (that’s three OTHER women)  The young man across from me just sneered is all.

I am sitting here, thinking about them, refusing to be the fat girl that dives into the doughnuts first.  Refusing to dive in at all, instead blogging about them.

AND I’m actually down a couple pounds.  I see my girlfriend next week and I do not want to put them back on before that (or at all in fact), which one bite of one doughnut would do.  Cause that would result in eating the entire doughnut and perhaps when no one was around another one (or two). 

Its not even like you can tell I’ve lost anything but it feels good.  The early morning workouts are working.

……this just in, they are not immune they are now looking at and cutting up to “share” or just have a “taste”.  Fat girls and skinny girls are just different beings!

Small baby steps, but better then crawling or flailing around whining.

Getting up in the mornings (read 4am) for cardio, getting in more regular stretching and slowly building stamina on the running.  What I have noticed increasing is the ****** desire to run ******  yes you read that correctly. 

Last week when my evenings were consumed with the deck, oh and unrelenting cold and rain I missed the running.  I was looking forward to running on Sunday, the first day I could fit it in.  Again a week down made me wonder where I left my lungs but the recovery was so much quicker and I was done, back home and feeling great in no time.

I have been getting up in the mornings at 4am and doing cardio.  But my other workouts this week have been building a deck.  Lots of work.  Feels good to be on fitness “project deck”.

Gotta love all the natural workouts that summer provides.  Not that you can tell its summer by the weather around here but the deck work and the garden work are surely adding to my exercise these days.

I bought one from Amazon, it should fit right in the corner of the gym.
I bought a pull up bar that fits on a door frame but since the door frame is an exterior door, yea it didn’t fit.
I got tired of looking for a used one and want to get the pull ups and dips into my routine.

My work schedule is swing for a couple weeks.  Getting up early and getting my cardio done in the mornings.  Need to get some stretching and weight workouts into the program but am feeling pretty positive these days.

I realize I haven’t blogged on this site for nearly a month.
That doesn’t mean I had completely fallen off plan and am under the table in some chocolate induced comma. I am still maintaining despite all of the distractions lately.

It has been quite a month. First being layed off and then having family arrive on leave from the air force. They flew in on the 12th of April and so I had a house full for 3 weeks. Visiting and catching up and meeting my newest niece was fantastic. It did mean the already interrupted schedule because of no job was even more disjointed. I did manage to continue working out and running just not as much as I could have. The food brought into my house was not stuff I would usually buy and I did partake of more calories then I should have but I have been continuing to make good choices.

I am now in California for eleven wonderful days with Chari. I brought workout gear with me and plan on getting some excersize while I’m here. We went to Monterey Bay over the weekend and I had some fantastic food and I did split a piece of chocolate covered cheesecake (on a stick) with Chari but am pretty happy with my choices.

There is also a lunch interview tomorrow and hopefully soon a job offer to follow (4th interview with this company). I know once I’m back to a normal routine with a job and normal schedule the workout’s and blog’s will be more routine as well.

Last night I wanted Chips and Salsa, I had the salsa and chips were only a brief trip to the store away. But I resisted. I was not hungry, I was not bored, I was a bit stressed from working on my resume but there was no “need” for this snack.

In fact I don’t have any typical snack food in the house, except maybe a piece of fruit there isn’t anything that doesn’t need to be prepared in some way. I know I often have the thought, I will buy these “chips”, “ice cream”, “cookies”, “snack foods” and I will limit myself to one serving if I decide to have them. When everything is on track that can be done. However I know that food is an issue for me, I abuse it when I’m bored, lonely, stressed, and currently I’m stressed and depressed about being layed off.

I have come to realize that I should never buy “snack foods”, truthfully there is no need for them. There are always fruits and veggies in the house and if in fact I’m hungry one of those will sound appealing. If I’ve already had my calories for the day and I’m not hungry there is no need for a snack, even if I’m bored and it sounds good.

How is snacking taking care of myself?

Also because I resisted, I am not retaining any water from all the salty chips I did not eat last night.

I have seen this twice on other blogs this week. It is worth watching and is so telling.