RESET
Yesterday I started the 5 day RESET program.
Designed to reset my glycemic index and my metabolism.
Three shakes, two bars, two packs of vitamins and 64 extra ounces of water.
Well I got through day one. I didn’t eat anything besides what you see in the picture. Boring. It helps that I waited until I had very little food left in my house. I added up the calories, and it only totals 1045 a day which doesn’t make any sence for resetting metabolism as it is too few so I will go ahead and add in an apple and a veggie this evening.
But I figure I can do anything for 5 days! Even drink these shakes. I could live with the chocolate one. But the vanilla which is never a flavor I like in shakes, was more difficult to get down. Strawberry which unless your seven why would you want strawberry I am having those for breakfast because well at 5:30 in the morning, my senses are still asleep and therefore I figure I wont notice.
The plan is called RESET. I am hoping it works to reset my state of mind if nothing else. Since being on first shift again for a month, my workouts have completely fallen off and the nearly 20 pounds I had taken off this year are already starting to creep back up. Some how, some way, I will fit in a workout on each of these five days as well.
Yesterday was a divine walk around Greenlake with Char. It was beautiful, the weather was mild, the color’s popped, there were ducks and turtles and life around us and the conversation was stimulating as always.
Heres to a week of RESET, as it is I have 3 posts in draft mode from last week. Clearly something needs to push the reset button and this will be it!!!!!!!!!
If I have help can I claim success
It is a really weird dichotomy I have. If I can lose weight, be healthy without any help then I can claim success. If I have help, say its a trainer, or supplements, or fasting, or weight watchers support group, basically anything that is not hard and sacrificial then for some reason the success I do have I fail to claim.
Like, Yes I did lose weight BUT I was on a schedule that almost forced me to the gym because I was dropping someone off at work, was a half mile from the gym and had six hours before my shift. Therefore allowing me uninterrupted time at the gym on a daily basis. (HELLO YOU RETARD, YOU STILL HAD TO GO)
-retard in a completely self loving and respectful manner-
Same with my running the marathons in the last year. Yes I went the 13.1 miles, yes I cut time off my first one, yes I did it alone even though it would have been more “fun” with a friend. But when people ask the first, the very first thing I say is. Oh I didn’t run the whole thing. (HELLO, YOU WENT THE DISTANCE, TAKE SOME FRIGGEN CREDIT)
-yes I am yelling-
I lost 90 pounds by working out and tracking my calories. NINETY. That is a whole person, or 3 toddlers. I am still in smaller clothes than I was in. I am actually currently down 55 pounds from my highest weight ever 8 or 9 years ago. So what do I focus on, the 35 pounds I am up from my lowest adult weight. (It really is sad, how I don’t give myself credit)
I went to a health and wellness seminar the other night and while I was at it decided to buy supplements and a nutrition RESET system. It will basically be five days of balanced nutrition shakes and bars. I also bought vitamin supplements and will start taking those. (My first thought was well I can’t take credit for the success if the RESET works, why because I had help) I know its irrational, and sad that its my first thought.
I’m sure anyone who really knows me is surprised by the vitamins. I do not take anything, I barely take ibuprofen or pain relievers. I also do not use any skin products because I don’t want to absorb all the chemicals into my body. I have always been a “your skin is your largest organ” person and when Sarah said this at the seminar I think I actually listened more because that is exactly my thinking. Besides not taking supplements of any kind, I am also the healthiest person I know (just jinxed myself didn’t I) not having the flu but once in my life, having two colds in the last twenty years, one right on top of the other about 3 years ago when a co-workers kids kept getting them and he brought the germs into the office. I have always contributed that to lots of fruits and veggies, organic everything that I can get. What does this say about the RESET and the supplements.
For today, I am just going to view them as tools. Like dumbbells or my elliptical trainer, for some reason I don’t give away my success to those inanimate objects.
I am excited that my supplements and nutritional RESET package and yes skin care products have shipped. I will let you know how it goes and try and take some credit for my success and more importantly view it as my success. I sure as heck accept the failures as my own.
The products are by USANA and focus on nutrition on a cellular level. If you are interested in them I will get you connected with my friend Sarah. You can find my email on my main blog – V-Lo’s View.
Routines and such
Lookey lookey that two weeks just flew by. I can see the wake of crumbs I left behind.
Just a quick update. I’m pretty much maintaining status quo.
Still eating too much, but working out almost daily which is just keeping me in the same place weight wise, and frustrated with my lack of progress.
It is what it is.
When I’m not working out regularly I can tell. I don’t sleep as well, and I certainly don’t have as much patience. The last week I had a couple cake projects, family graduation and company in town so 4 days in a row I really didn’t get much movement and ate too much. It just feels gross.
The good thing is I can feel the difference when I get right beck into a routine. It feels good to be working out the last few days, even if my calories are too high.
Here comes fall and a schedule change again and I feel much more ready to handle it then before this stint on second where I could get my workouts back in order. Soon I’ll be getting up at 4:30 in the morning again and working out in the afternoons. But I have faith in myself and my determination.
Matter Over Mind
Clearly my resolve from earlier today didn’t stick. I finished off the damn container of cookies at work.
Why? Because they were the most exotic cookies ever made? NO
Because they are rare and hard to find and if I didn’t I may never get them again? NO
Because the flavor was so good they they were irresistible? NO
Because they were there…..that must be it. Because I had no will power….yea that played into it somehow.
I didn’t want them. They were not that good, after the first one they were not even enjoyable. Each one that I ate made me feel worse.
Matter over Mind!
My Own Words
The last couple days have been a wasteland of empty calories.
Thing is except for the excuse of “PMS” there doesn’t seem to be a reason.
I would like to think that my body about to shed a bunch of weight because of the increased exercise and is trying to maintain that fat so sending me to the cupboard and to foods I don’t usually eat.
So today I get a comment on a blog from last year. The blog was entitled Snacks. When the comment came across in my email it was pretty vague so I went back to read the post. I clearly just needed to “hear” my own words.
I have had more snacks in the last few days then I have had in the last two and a half months. I think after this I am done, for now. Lets hope next time my own words hit me sooner in the calorie loading craze.
boomerang
With Chari here for 11 days and then a wedding cake due there were legitimate reasons I haven’t gotten much exercise (so far) this month. However those “excuses” being over I have to get back on track.
It would be so easy to keep missing the workouts, I mean its not like I don’t have enough house work, yard work, garden work, pool maintenance and dog care to make more “legitimate” excuses.
However I am feeling better. That makes it sound like I felt bad, that’s not it. I am feeling prouder. Wait that makes it sound like I was ashamed. I am making progress, I am loosing weight. I am still getting projects done. Maybe not as quickly if I weren’t stopping in the middle to go for a run or ride the elliptical and do some weights but in my promise to take care of myself. Its just what has to happen.
Last week I didn’t loose everything from the 11 days Chari was here. But I also didn’t work out and baked a wedding cake all week (which includes required tasting of cake.) I did loose most of it so I am thinking with just doing what is now considered “my usual” routine, I should drop the rest and then some pretty quickly.
It will be hard but I can still make the 10% in 10 weeks if I really try hard. That will mean 2.5 pounds both this week and next.
Back Sliding on week 7
For my mini goal of 10% in 10 weeks I am up for weight on week 7.
This puts me behind my goal so I need to be extra diligent for the next three weeks.
I didn’t really “maintain” during my visit with Chari. However it was much better then usual. I would say that the last four days of the eleven were a complete disaster. I did keep track of calories and think it helped to at least stay aware. At least when I weighed up on Monday I knew exactly why.
This week I’m supposed to be getting back on track. Yesterday I ate the leftover Risotto instead of throwing it away but I did manage 20 minutes on the elliptical trainer. Today I went shopping for cake supplies and ended up not working out and having a poor excuse of a lunch of potato chips until I over turned the bag into the trash.
Tomorrow I will be starting to make butter cream frosting for the cake due on Friday and possibly baking the larger of the tiers. HOWEVER, a cake that needs to bake for an hour, gives me enough time to at least get on the Elliptical trainer for 45 minutes!
My goal this week, week 7, is to get back to were I was at the beginning of week 6 so there will be a stronger possibility of making the goal in the two weeks that follow.
Found Some
Motivation that is.
Today’s motivation besides the fact that I simply tacked on a half mile to my run is the fact that a pair of trousers I bought in London last time I was there (2006?) I took the tags off today and am wearing.
I have officially dropped a size in the last 4 weeks.
M O T I V A T I O N !!
PMS’n
I want to eat everything sweet, salty and cheesy that I can find.
I have brushed my teeth for the night to quit snacking….(TWICE)
Lame excuse to eat especially when I know why it is. Damn Hormones.
The same ones that have me tearing up at every damn commercial or nice thing I see or read. Or crummy thing I see or read.
So I don’t waste the entire weeks worth of work I am heading upstairs just to get away from the kitchen.
700 uneeded calories today. Chips. Not even mine, my room mates, and stale. GOOD GRIEF!
Excuses
The biggest road blocks to weight loss are excuses.
Weight loss takes only a couple things, controlling what goes into your mouth and getting exercise everyday.
There are other things that help, a schedule that is conducive to working out, weather that is conducive to working out, enjoying working out, support system, workout buddy, liking vegetables doesn’t hurt either.
Excuses are what I have had plenty of the last few months. Getting together with my good friend Char a few weeks ago and re-committing to email each other every day and listening to myself make excuses, which I completely bought into and then listening to her excuses, which sounded like, well excuses. Made me realize I was a big fat Phony.
Emphasis on BIG and FAT.
In the course of 2.5 weeks I have dropped just under 10 pounds. The main thing I changed was my excuse.
It is not easy to put exercising in front of gardening, weeding or cleaning my house. All of those things I love to do and there is always work to do. But that’s the crux. There is always work so putting it off for an hour to take care of myself first is just a must.
Food is the other excuse I have to give up. I am an emotional eater. That means I eat when I’m bored, I eat when I’m lonely, I eat when I’m stressed, I eat when I’m sad, I eat for celebration and oh yea, when I’m hungry. Because my hunger monitor is broken I have to go by other factors. Like how many calories do I NEED for the day. I am often hungry sticking to under 1600 calories a day. I often feel deprived of yummy food.
What I am not deprived of is nutrition. So I log calories, I keep track of my workouts and in 2.5 weeks I have lost just under 10 pounds. All of the excuses I have held onto for the last year are just lame. I am not even going to repeat them here and give then any air time.
Putting myself, my health and my well being first IS the most important thing. It is not always easy. Last weekend I went out to dinner with a friend. A dinner I ended up not being able to afford based on the place we ended up. I could have chosen a less healthy option on the menu. But the money and needing to transfer a little out of savings to cover the fresh tuna was so much better for me then getting the fried chicken and mashed potatoes.
I sat there reading the menu, the $10 difference in price did not escape me. But not allowing ANY excuse to get in the way of caring for myself I got the Tuna steak and enjoyed every low calorie bite of it.
